Monday, January 6, 2014

500th


 I feel deflated. This is my 500th post and I just don't feel inspired for a grand post.  I want it to be special.  I mean I know that this little blog is just something for me and it's rarely read by 20 of my sweet friends.  But it's something to me.  It makes me think of that quote from You've Got Mail...

The odd thing about this form of communication is that you're more likely to talk about nothing than something,but i jut wanted to say that all of these nothings have meant more to me than so many somethings -Kathleen Kelly, You've Got Mail

Because it is something special to me.  It's my little piece of earth...where I can come to and just release. I can vent, share creativity, sort through what my heart is feeling and leave a piece of me. 

So anyways, because this space is special to me and well, the 500th post of anything seems like something to celebrate... I will share some thank you's to this blog.

Living Life Creatively, 

Thank you for being here anytime of the day or night I can squeeze in some "me" time. I need somewhere to connect and boom...you are there.  It's 1 a.m. and everyone else is sleeping, I can log on here to share a little of me. 

When I look back through the posts over the past six years, I'm shocked about how many crucial "life" moments were hashed out right here.  My second (the real first post...the actual first one was just hello) post was right after we were engaged. We were just traveling, head over heals in love and sooo young. It totally takes me back to the feelings I had during that season. When I was anxious and struggling with longing for a baby. Through our foster/adoption process: our first night, when I wrote a letter to their birth mother on Mother's Day and processing it all right after our adoption was final. This place has been somewhere to showcase all the crafts and decor I've been trying out. When I looked back through the different pivotal moments in life  and how I handle change. From when we first bought our home and the post on how I've summarized the beautiful blessing that is our home. 
 I think the biggest thing it's done for me is capture and work through this season of mommyhood.  It's the hardest job I've ever had and I feel the weight of it's significance everyday. I want to do my best and also to remember all these "everyday" moments. I know they are going way too fast.
 So thank you, dear blog of mine. I'm pretty sure life would be messier, I'd loose perspective more often and I would forget how much fun it is to create if it wasn't for you.
You, are like an old friend. Every time I leave this space after emptying my heart, it does my soul good.

Another good thing to do after meeting such a milestone (especially around New Years) is to plan for the future. I found this list of what I want to do in 2014.  It helps me to have specifics to answer instead of one huge resolution. 

This Year...

A bad habit I'm going to break...
procrastinating laundry.

A new skill I'd like to learn...
sewing (the machine will not intimidate me any longer)

A person I hope to more like...
my Moma (specifically, more prepared and more giving)

A good deed I'm going to do...
this one was hard...I'm thinking of a few I'll have to come back to this.

A place I'd like to visit...
a beach, anywhere.

A book I'd like to read...
A Handmade Year, Jerusalem Greer
Seven, Jenn Hatmaker
Chronicles of Narnia, C.S. Lewis (I know...I can't believe I haven't read them yet either)
Hands Free Mama, Rachel Stafford

A letter I'm going to write...
2 things: bring Good Mail back with my besties and write more letters to my children

A new food I'd like to try:
nothing here?!?!?  maybe baking/cooking healthier

I'm going to do better at...

 starting less projects and completely everyone I start.
being a hands free mama...I don't want to overlook one moment of this.
 
be better at meal planning for my family.
memorize Scripture (thank you, Ann Voskamp for these cards & plan)

Thanks for sticking with me through this LONG post. 
Happy New Year and Happy 500th post!



Wednesday, January 1, 2014

I'm not ready to let go...

I'm up and very tired.  I could blame it on the baby, but that isn't the whole truth.
It has a lot to do with the panic rising up in my chest. 
I'm not ready to let go of this season.

Don't get me wrong. I'm so over standing in long shopping lines, rushing to bake several things all in 3 hrs, staying up too late wrapping and going non stop.

I'm done with those crazy parts of the holiday palooza that is November and December. 

But I'm not quite ready to let go of...
 watching the magic fill their eyes.
 cuddling up close for whole afternoons.
letting everyone enjoy more treats than we should.
having the Man home to play with our littles.

taking time to just enjoy the giggles and be silly.


being surrounded by so many quiet, sacred moments. 

the Christmas Carol karaoke we had in the car.

reasons to dress up and get out of my yoga pants and tshirts.
simply taking a break from reality to enjoy the simplest of life's goodness.

I'm revolting.
No one can leave the house tomorrow.
No work. No school. No appointments.

This is me in denial.
Praying for a snow day.
: )
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